Country living.

I interviewed my boyfriend, Ryan. He grew up in Rossiter, PA. Its a small town over the hill from Punxsy. Its even smaller than Punxsy, believe it or not. Some of his family live their. Majority of the population in Rossiter are rest homers. There are about 5 rest homes in that town and two of them are on the street that he use to live on. They walk around like zombies. There is only one little store, so people basically shop in Punxsy.
While growing up in Rossiter, Ryan played with his older brother and sister. They would play with other kids in the town but his mom was too protective. Back then Rossiter was a very violent place. They have to trick or treat in the day light now, reason being is that a long time ago the older kids would beat up the littler kids for their candy. So, Ryan didn't go trick or treating in Rossiter that much, he went in Punxsy at night time. Him and his brother would ride bikes on the street, walk in the woods, skateboard, and wrestle. He was always out side. He didn't play video games that much or even watch TV.
Every weekend he would go with his dad. His mom and dad are not together. He would spend his weekends working on his dirt bike or hunting with his dad. He has a very close relationship with his dad. When he would be at his dads so would his half sister. He considered her to be his sibling more than his older ones. She was younger and didn't follow what others were doing like his older brother and sister.
Ryan was the only kid to graduate high school. His brother and sister dropped out and had kids and a very young age. His brother cuts meat for a living, has three kids and lives with his girl friend. His sister has two kids and doesn't have a job, basically lives on welfare and her kids child support. Ryan has his own house, works at a high end gas well company and does all the good that he can to do better than his siblings. His dad effected his life in a positive way it seems. He looked up to his dad and learned from his mistakes.  

College So far.

How is college so far? Every time I see someone in my family, they ask me that same question. I tell them its going really good. But in a more depth description, I'm stressed, over whelmed and exhausted. But yet its still going really good.

Home work and all the hard work stresses me out. after my two or three classes I go to the library to do my homework. Reason for that is that I don't have Internet at my house because I live in the middle of no where and I can focus more when I'm in a quiet place. All I want to do after my class is to go home and relax, but instead I go to the library and do what needs to be done. All this homework makes me stressed. I'm over whelmed by all the work and time you have to put in to everything in college. In high school I never did anything for any of my classes. It also makes me exhausted when I get home. I always say I'm going to study at home, but I hardly do because I just want to take a break.

For my history test this week I put relaxing and studying together. I was watching tv and laying down, I'd study during the comercials. I'd mute the tv every now and then to go through the study guide more in depth. It worked out pretty good. I didn't hesitate during one question on the test. Studying the week before the test helped too.

Some people say to me that I'm stressed, over whelmed and exhuasted because I do everything as soon as its assigned. I don't wait till the night before to do a mastery test or to write notes. I feel like I have more work to do if I wait till the night before.

Desire and Betrayal in Friendships

I'm reading a chapter in Everyday Courage called Desire and Betrayal in Friendships. I can relate to it because I look for trust, honesty, and loyalty in my friendships. If I trust a friend and they go behind my back, it kinda makes me not trust people or believe them.
    I read about Albert. He likes to stay at home and to be on the safe side. He doesn't like hanging out with people getting killed. He doesn't think that he has any friends because he "feels a close friend is going to be there for you and they'll support you and stuff like that". He had a friend once but he stole his stuff like tapes and his girlfriend. Now he has problems trusting and people being loyal to him.
     I also read about Marcus. Marcus doesn't really have the problems with friendship like Albert does, but he thinks they are a waste of time. He has allot of friends that he hangs out with. He once had a best friend for 8 years but he had to move to Florida. Now, he thinks they are a waste of time because they might end up having to leave.
  I can relate to both of them because like Albert I need trust and loyalty from a friendship. I can relate to Marus because it would be hard if one of your best friends all of a sudden left you one day. I would have trouble finding someone worth my time and effort to become best friends with.
   As I read about Marie, I relate to her but then I don't. Her best friend is her cousin. I am not so close with any of my family like that. Marie and her cousin never had "the first argument yet". Her cousin doesn't lie to her and she is real. I can relate to her because she is right about "sometimes people be like your best friend could be your worst friend because they know everything, you know". I have problems trusting my friends and sometimes that statement runs through my head. Can I trust you? Are you telling other people what i say? But I guess you just have to trust that they aren't untill you hear other wise.
     I also read about a girl named Sonia. She has friends but her best friend is her sister. They are open with each other. I don't have any siblings to be close with, so I kinda rely on school and social events to have friends. I once too use to think that I had so many best friends just like Sonia did, but it boiled down to the same thing.


 "Girls voiced many more fears about being in relationships with boys than boys voiced about being in relationships with girls."
I agree with this quote because some girls trust the guy they date then the boy would do something to break that trust. That's why girls are scared of getting involved with guys. Most boys I think feel like they can be themselves while they are with the right girl because around their guy friends they would have to act tough and rough around the edges.